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I have a lot on my mind... [16 Jul 2003|01:09am]
[ mood | calm ]

Man what I day I fought with Suzy all day and I feel bad because I said a lot of bogus things and I feel bad because she thinks i dun care when i do care more than ever I love her so much but things r really fucked up right now and it sucks because all I want is her in my life and for us to be happy thats it...Suzy Im sorry babe for the way things happened today we both said a lot of bogus shit and Im sorry I want u to know that I love you so much and I want things to work with us but if we cant move on from this shit than maybe we should just quit u know I'm tired of being hurt and hurting u that shit is not cool and we both know that but hopefully things work otu in the end because I don't wanna lose u.. u r a huge part of my life and I'm not gonna give up on us and lose the only true love I have ever had well I hope u right me back or comment on this I really mean what i'm saying Suzy I love you and no matter what happens I will always love you and have u in my heart but things have to change.....I love you my little angel(ICE CUBE)

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Fucking Hate everyone.... [15 Jul 2003|12:42pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Man I am so sick of girls asshole friends everybody...I hate my family I hate everyone right now people piss me off I wish I wouldn't have done a lot of things this year...I am so pissed I don't love anyone anymore it's pointless to trust me all u will get is some bitch or asshole they really doesnt care about u and just says they do and never shows it relationships r a waste of time and all u ever do is get hurt but whatever all people remember r the bad things not all the good things u did just the bad well I am tired of everything I am moving away I don't have anything left here anymore and I don't want anything I just want to be by myself...........

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Chillin.... [10 Jul 2003|11:22pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Just been chilling thinkin about all the bills I have to pay and whats going with me and Suzy we r broken up up but still see each other and talk and kiss like we r going out still...it's confucsing u know I just wish things would happen already but whatever I just keep chillin I have a lot of things to worry about right now cant dwell on everything for ever just have to learn to let it go...man I need a nother job I am broke I am sick of working and never having any money to spend it all goes to my bills doesn't it suck but thats life...well I'm gonna go need to go and think right now laterz....

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Heavy thinkin lately....... [08 Jul 2003|11:59pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Wow my life is upside down right now between court and my job and my realtionship it's all fucked up I have no stability in my life...I had court on monday and I have court this thursday and I have to go to the police station tomorrow to wiret a statement for some bullshit that happened...but what ever on the way home i found a dollar bill...this might sound stupid but I think it's good luck and right now I need some...but otherwise life is ok i fist fought my dad yesterday whooped his ass but im not proud of it im just pissed at everyone at my house but my sister...well im gonna go talk to u laterz I love you Suzy and I want u back as my girlfriend....<3

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I wish I was better!!!!! [06 Jul 2003|07:46pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Well I just talked to Suzy we are broken up and it hurts I love that girl so much she will never know what she really means to me...(to suzy) listen I love you babe u r my little angel my ice cube your my everything...I know we have been down a road some what like 25 th ave for anyone that knows mel rose park...but we have worked threw before and we will work threw it know...I know right now u need to be alone and that fine with me I know I have hurt u too I just want u to know that I am sorry for things I have done and said to u I wish I could go back and make everything better I wisgh I could give u everything u ever wanted and make your life better I wish I could be the guy u want me too be but all I can do is try for u...I would do anything for u and I mean that...u r the most important thing to me in my life u r the last thing I think about before I go to bed and the first thing i think about when i wake up...I guess all my trying to say is I love you so much and I will always be here because u can't just leave someone like that when u care and love more than anyhting u have ever cared or loved well I will talk to u laterz Suzy and for everyone else when u love someone hold onto them and make sure u treat them right and care and love them the same way u would want to be cared and loved...because u can only be in love so many times but when u know u have the one and u lose it hurts like no other well laterz everyone....:(

1 know who we be! // in da club!@#$

Woah it's been a while [01 May 2003|02:50pm]
[ mood | good ]

Man I haven't typed here in a while...well things r a lot better for me I have a new job..I work at in emissions place in Addison it's cool as hell there I made a lot of new friends and shit so it's all good...things with me and Suzy r a lot better yeah we have r moments but I know we both care about each other so we will get threw anything...I think my poblem is I need to chill and relax I have a girl that cares about me she just shows it differently than my other girlfriends did and I guess I finally realize that...just like yesterday she made this icon(blinkie) thing whatever lol and it was pictures of us at Angel's christmas party kissing and shit and it kept blinking to another pic it was aweosme and it made me realize that she shows she cares about me but just different than I do...anyways well I am off of work today i needed the break I have been working my ass off lately...man I never get to sleep in anymore it sucks but whatever at least I am working...well I am gonna go for now don't know whats going on for tonight but I hope I see Suzy laterz...I love you <3

in da club!@#$

Just Chillin Nice Day Out! [15 Apr 2003|12:53pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Man well things have been straight lately just when I think things r getting bad they get really good just like Suzy say's, every ending has a new beginning and I belive that now, well last weel Suzy, Nicki, Jackie all got new jobs and I'm sittinghere like what the fuck I apply at a million places can't even get a call back well sure enough I got a job yesterday I've benn feeling like my luck is changing, well things between me and Suzy r good I'm so happy for her she has a new job she will be getting her car it's all good I love her so much and I'm so lucky to have her as a girlfriend she has made me realize a lot of things that I haven't before and I thank her for that she is my only true love and my baby and I would do anything for her, well I think things r getting better and thats good for a change, well I am gonna go so everyone enjoy the weather it's fucking beautiful out...laterz I love you Suzy...<3

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Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!! [09 Apr 2003|01:27am]
[ mood | happy ]

Well I haven't wrote here in a while but so what I dunno care well I hope everyone had been good because Ihave been...things between me and Suzy are finally good I am happy about that hopefully it stays that way I love that girl so much...well I started working again which is good because we where off for like 2 weeks which sucked but it's all good...I have a couple of new jobs lined for me thanks to my dad which he has been cooler with me lately and I hate hin but whatever...well I went bowling last week it was fun as hell I was with Suzy,Nicki,Jackie,Meagan and myself it was awesome drank and bowled it was nice we r going again this weekend I am looking forward to it... well I am gonna go so I will see u all laterz...I love you Suzy...<3

in da club!@#$

Thinkin! [27 Mar 2003|12:08pm]
[ mood | content ]

Man well last night was gay I was bored as hell yesterday and I couldn't stop thinkin about Suzy yesterday...she called me at like 3:30 and we talked till bauot 5:00 she said she was gonna go and hang out with Angel yesterday and she did she asked me if I was mad and I told her no I just wanted to see her last night really bad but I didn't tell her that because I don't want her to feel like she can't see her friends so I kept my mouth shut...lately things have been all messed up with us everytime we fight it's over nothing and everytime we fight I feel like we r gonna break up I hate that shit I just want things to be good with us I love this girl so much and care about her so much I don't wanna lose her but I don't know what to do anymore I guess I just have to go step by step will se what happens...I miss her right now I haven't seen her in 3 days and right now I really could use to see her but I don't even think I'll see her today everytime I talk to her I get this feeling like she doesn't wanna see me she doesn't say that I just feel that way but whatever...I dunno how me and Suzy went from being so happy with each other to feeling like we can't talk to each other like we can't be with each other without fighting I just hope that we can work threw this and go back to the way we use to be and I would be so happy...well I am done blabbin for now but lately I have benn feeling so alone and shit i just need someone to talk to thats all well I'll see u all laterz...I heart u<3 sp+dc<3

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Going to Work Yesssssssssssssss! [24 Mar 2003|05:59am]
[ mood | tired ]

Hey what's up I have work In a little bit leaving in like 2 minutes but I just wanted to say I love you Suzy and have a good day I will call u laterz after work ok...I wanna see u tonight but if u don't it's cool I know u can't see me everyday well laterz <3

in da club!@#$

Good Mood! [23 Mar 2003|11:20pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Well the last two nights where staright i was with Suzy both of themthings r getting better between us I just hope it satys that way I don't want to hurt Suzy anymore I love her too much and I don't wanna lose her over bullshit...I just think me and her need to sit back once and a while look at what we have and say is it really worth it to fight all the time over nothing...but anyways it's all good now and I hope it stays that way I love that girlw ith all my heart and I just want us to both be happy...well tonight I played pool with Suzy and Angel it was fun my girl and my daughter it was fun I miss hanging out with Suzy and Angel together it's fun that way those girls get crazy when they r together it's funny...well I am just happy right now and I hope I stay that way...well I'm gonna go I have work tomorrow and Suzy is calling me at 12:30 or so so laterz...<3

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Nothin much just woke up! [19 Mar 2003|11:11am]
[ mood | anxious ]

Wow what a weird night last night it was straight I saw my friend Bill last night that I haven't seen in a while he's hilarious as hell I use to work with him at K mart and he went to my highschool...but anyways I didn't see my girlfriend last night and I miss her right now but lately I have been feeling out of place with everyone and I dun no why...I mean I have been going out with Suzy and my friends but it's just I feel like I shouldn't be there for some reason whatever maybe I just don't feel good who knows...I'm just glad I have my friends like Steve and Don and mt girlfriend like Suzy hear to help me if I nedd it...well I am gonna go now eat soemthing I am hungry as hell right now didn't really eat yesterday...so talk to u all laterz...

in da club!@#$

Suzy! [14 Mar 2003|09:21am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Listen babe I am sorry about last night...I know u have every right to be mad at me and every right not to feel certain ways it justs bothers me that you don't know how u feel about me I know it's my fault that u feel the way u do and everything and I don't really know how I am suppose to act it just sucks because I do love you with allmy heart more then you will ever know...I'm sorry I didn't mean to piss u off last night and I know I did but right now I want to be able to say I love you and u say it back it bothers me inside to think that my own gorlfreind doesn't know how she feels about me it just sucks but I guess I deserve all of this...but I'm sorry I just have a lot on my mind and I didn't mean anything yesterday I am not mad at u or anything I don't even blame u for the way u feel because u have every right to feel that way but I just wish I could say i love you to u and u would say it back but I guess I have to wait a while for that that's what I get for hurting u well I'll talk to u laterz babe...I love you if it matters...;(

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Wazzz Upppp! [13 Mar 2003|12:23pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Man I haven't been on in a while I have a new layout it's straight Suzy made it for me...well things have been ok lately I just feel like I don't know how to feel anymore about anything...It's wierd but whatever...man I ate this nasty ass chicken sandwich yesterday it was raw and I am almost puked whatever though...man I need to get another job so I have more money...well I don't have time to type right now but I guess I'll type laterz..

in da club!@#$

Good Day! [09 Mar 2003|02:42am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well I had a good day I had work but I got to see Suzy it was fun even though it was only like 2 hours it was awesome...well work was gay tonight to much jagging around so many people r so fucking stupid like they all came from Poland or something...lol...man i am so tired I lost a lot of my energy before I went to work (SUZY) but work was straight...I miss Suzy right now I feel like things r getting better between us and I hope they stay that way I need to work my ass off to keep that girl I love her so much and she is the only one of my gf's that actually has ever cared about me well I am tired as hell so I'm gonna go to bed I love you Suzy eventhough u don't want me to say that...laterz<3

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I wish I knew what to do... [06 Mar 2003|04:38pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I am so confused right now with everything I hate the way I feel right now I just wish that I didn't mess up all the time I hurt everyone including myself I don't know what to do anymore I need help I need someone to turn to but I feel like I don't have anyone right now I feel alone and I feel scared...I don't want to lose my girl but I feel like I already did...I have never made a mistake before like this where I felt like this was the dumbest thing I have ever done I don't even care about anything else in my life right now just about fixing what I fucked up...I feel like I don't care anymore about anything I hate feeling that way I feel like the biggest asshole and the most undeserving piece of shit ever well i guess nothing matters anymore I guess I will just wait and hope that things get better...

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Hi! [04 Mar 2003|11:09am]
[ mood | worried ]

Well I am tired as hell right now and I had a shitty day yesterday my girlfriend doesn't trust me anymore and I think I lost her for good...I hope I didn't because she is the only thing in my life that means something...but if I do it's my fault no one elses only mine...I made a huge mistake that I can't take back only try and fix...I don't know what's gonna happen with me and Suzy but Ihope we can work on it because I don't want to lose her in my life...I love you Suzy weather u wanna hear it or not I do and I care about u so much I just fucked up for a second I never meant to hurt u believe me when i say that but I'm done talking I have already said all this before it's I don't know what else to do...well I am gonna go now so I'll talk to u whenever u feel like talking to me bye.....

1 know who we be! // in da club!@#$

I am an ASSHOLE and I don't deserve Suzy! [04 Mar 2003|12:17am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Wow what a fucking weekend I had I am so pissed at myself it's not even funny I cheated on Suzy yesterday I was drunk at a hotel party and I was passed out and some gilr kissed me and I kissed back but that's it...It doesn't really matter because I fucked up and I am a jagoff I hurt the only girl that every really cared about me and that I ever really loved this way and I can't do anything but sit here and hope she stays with me..I never meant for this to ahppen I would never cheat on her but it happened and I am sorry and I hope u know that Suzy that I love u with all my heart and I am sorry that I hurt u the way that I did well I am gonna go right now so I'll talk to u all laterz bye..

2 know who we be! // in da club!@#$

Every Thing Blows...... [02 Mar 2003|02:27am]
[ mood | high ]

Well My day sucked as usual but It doesn't matter anymore what goes on I worry too much and I need to stop...all I do is worry about everything but me but anywayz...well I had an ok night didn't see Suzy probally went out clubbin or something I dunno know though hope she had fun...man things r fucked up right now between us and I dunno think things r gonna get better but I hope so I really do...well otheriwse my night was ok I got really fucked up and shit and it was fun didn't have to think about anything I love that...well I guess I'm gonna go But I love you Suzy so much and I hope u want what I want and thats for us to be together and happy... well laterz babe and everyone...<3

in da club!@#$

Yessssssss! [26 Feb 2003|12:11pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Well I got a call this morning for another job I am so happy I really need another job it's at the airport that's good as hell for me...Well I had fun last night I saw a bucnh of my friends but the only thing that sucked was that I wanted too see Suzy yesterday but I couldn't because her dad or something I dunno really but it's cool I just miss her a lot right now I haven't seen her in like almost 2 weeks now and I probally wont see her this weekend because she be with her friends maybe I think Angel is coming out here so will see what happens with us...but man I have work tomorrow that sucks and friday night too plus I have that interview Friday morning at 9 so hopefully that goes good...well all i want right now to happen is to see my girlfriend soon and for things to get better thats all and this new job would be nice too than I have a better chance to get a car...well I am gonna go for now I love you Suzy and I miss u...talk to u all laterz...

in da club!@#$

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